Saturday, September 22, 2007

Suddenly lonely

It's gotta be the music.

Buddha, the trucker dude, has been gone for about 10 days and I have been busy and not missing him or anything else in all that time.

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Until just a few minutes ago, when I caught some country music on TV just before I turned it off for the night, and suddenly I missed him.

I had to think about this. Him, or someone?

No, him.

Fuck me. I must be getting soft in my old age.

He will be really surprised when I tell him this, because we'd already talked about breaking up. Like, the day after he went on his last road trip. I think he knew I was unhappy with him, because he brought it up. "Do you still want to see me when I get back?"

But I would rather be with him tonight and NOT be getting up at the crack of dawn tomorrow to handle hotel guests.

Never happy, am I?

It will pass.


Kat said...

You care about him.
It happens.

Chunks said...

Oh oh. Shut off the CMT! LOL!

Mindy said...

Are you afraid to let your wall down? You need to be happy. Let yourself go.

lattégirl said...

I was NOT listening to country music!!! I was on "shuffle"!

Not my fault (well, yes, it is) that most of my music tends toward the introspective.)